Life holds many qualities. Qualities such as happiness, sadness, tragedy, and love. At one point or another during my life I will feel these emotions, my life circles around them. This drives me to look at my life and the struggles I have been through and all the high points I’ve experienced contributing to the person I am today. This belief originates from the idea that I believe life is not perfect, it is an intricate puzzle that gets pieced together day by day, one step at a time. After watching my great grandmother pass at the young age of six, I was introduced to this new understanding of life first hand, then again when I was diagnosed with a life changing illness at the age of nine. I want to make my life count and without going through the highs and lows of life, I thought many things. How could my life mean anything if my life is only all highs without the lows? I also believe that people are free spirits, we do what we want as we please. We have the power to shape our lives to be what we want. This contradicts the idea that I was brought up on. I was brought up to believe that God has a plan out there and preset for every person. As I have gone through life, I got dealt horrible cards from medical issues, relationship issues, and family issues. However, I built this new belief for myself that it is me in control of my own life. I chose and continue to choose who I am and who I become. Lastly, I believe that life has a beautiful fluidity to it. This was driven from my love for music, I use it to describe how I wish to live my life. Music and its fluidity mimics that of real life going on around us. I feel that I am embedded in a song that I create through the situations I find myself in. I construct myself in an outer body way, I take ideas from the outside and created them into the inner me. I am a person of faith, but faith on my own terms and beliefs.
I picture my revealed box to display the life I have lived through the use of the everyday objects I have in my room and still use today. Most of these objects are directly given to me from the people who have helped to create the happiness, sadness, tragedy and love in my life. These objects gave me the strength to keep pushing on when I thought I couldn’t. I see things hanging with in the box on string. They may or may not swing but this will only show the fluidity on how I view life. With intricate movement or none at all. I plan to attempt to reshape the box for the photographs. This will display the free spirt. The box was given to us to be a square box. However, just because it was dealt to us like this it doesn’t need to always stay like that. Showing I have the power to change what is dealt to me, I have the power and will to change my life. The box will also be covered in sheet music with my favorite pieces of music on them. They were coping mechanisms for when I hit a hard low of being diagnosed with a life changing auto immune disease at the age of nine. The box will show the struggle I have been through, the high points I have experienced but most of all how I have the power to shape my own life and how I live it is my choice. Not the choice of the world around me.